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THE OTHER SIDE OF THE DIVIDE

February 23, 2014

I live in Eugene near the freeway dividing it from Springfield:  two cities, two different worlds.  Most have heard of Eugene:  the University of Oregon. Springfield is poorer.  One immediately notices the change upon crossing the McKenzie River.  The houses are smaller, there are strip joints, pawn shops, bars for loggers, but no sign of the University of Oregon.  One of the high schools is for problem students. There are no IB (International Baccalaureate) high schools or even Duck Stores in Springfield.  Eugene has three of each.

There is a divide even in Eugene, evident when one rides the bus, which I often do.  A neighbor has lived here for decades and has never ridden it.  In a week, I had been all over both cities.  I know many schedules, the routes, and never am concerned if I get lost, because I will learn something.

Many poor people ride the bus, because it is far cheaper than having a car:  insurance costs alone are more than a year’s fare.  I’d say 90% of riders have some type of pass.  I do. I see single mothers hauling large bags of groceries, maybe with a child or two in tow.  There are students, with no other way to travel, the disabled, who can easily get on the bus and strapped in. The bus allows cheap, efficient mobility for many who would otherwise have no way to get what they needed.

The riders are polite.  I’ve never been yelled at, nor have I seen unruly behavior, although it must exist.  Daily, I see a lot worse from vehicle drivers. People who take the bus often strike up a conversation when I meet them at a bus stop or on the bus.  They thank the driver when they get off.  They are ordinary people: young and old, male and female, poor and …. poor.  They call me “Sir” and offer a seat, which I politely decline.  They are trying to get by.  I see many of these same people when I pick up my medication at Wal-Mart. I find myself becoming more polite and tolerant in the presence of those who have little, perhaps because I realize how much I have.  I made it to 65; Steve Jobs didn’t make it to 60, or even 57.  I struggle to learn German; but millions of people would give much to speak English the way I do.

Recently, on a rainy day, I decided against taking the bus home, walking instead. I got some hot chocolate at Dutch Brothers, chatted with the clerk, and left a decent tip:  a year ago, I would not have done any of the three. Columnist “Dear Prudence” once wrote how important tips are to service workers.  It matters. I walked home along the Willamette River, in flood, spotted a man, stopping to talk.  This is difficult for me to do; last year I would have continued walking. Lately, however, many on the other side of the fortune divide have become easier for me to talk to, this man’s being no exception.  His face had a lot of miles on it; he had ridden his bike from Springfield, in the rain, just to watch the river.

We talked about the water’s going to the sea, rather than California, which needs it, or to storage, where it could be used later in a variety of ways. He told me that the large, empty, moss-covered pipe behind me was once going to be used to pump water elsewhere.  What happened, he didn’t know.  I had wondered about that pipe. I wonder how many rich folks looked at the river, really high, the whole character different.  If you are a mover and a shaker, you often don’t have time for these sorts of things.  Charisma, looks, ability to pitch ideas, money, and business plans are on one side of the divide.

I’m on the other side: I am old, neither good looking, charismatic nor a businessman.   But on my side is an intense curiosity about the world.  Perhaps if others came across, they would discover useful ideas from a curious old man: a safe way to report and learn from medical errors, how to conserve resources, especially fresh water; how to count outcomes of high risk medical procedures; the need for mandatory national service; keeping public schools open evenings and weekends for tutoring, by volunteers like me, who know how to make the material relevant.  We also need to get kids outside to see nature, the rhythms of the sky, listen to the music of the spheres, smell, and touch the Earth. I keep trying to open the door to my side of the divide.

The man from Springfield listened, as I computed aloud the approximate volume of water passing us.  I mused if we could build an oil pipeline across Alaska, we could build a waterline to Lake Shasta, in northern California.  I called fresh water 21st century oil, which he thought interesting.  We have enough water; we must use it better.  He listened.  Maybe he didn’t understand me; maybe I didn’t, either, but we both knew a big opportunity was being lost.  He and I were on the same side of the curious-not curious divide, the side where one lives usually decided in early childhood by whether parents allow kids to be curious. I was lucky; I grew up in a household where you could ask three questions about a topic at the dinner table.  I was taught to be curious, and that curiosity required asking good questions.

Crossing a few divides has made me happier, perhaps because I am more grateful for what I have.  I smile more, which others return.  They talk, thank me for allowing them to sit, or tolerating their child.  I’m not part of their side of the divide, but traveling there has taught me compassion.

 

 

WATER HOURS

February 19, 2014

“Damn it!  The snipes turned the water off just as I got soaped up!!”  The First Lieutenant on my ship (head of the Deck Department) had been in the shower when the engineers (we called them “snipes”) had suddenly instituted “water hours”; fresh water was no longer available for the crew.  

In the Navy, fresh water was required for our two steam boilers that turned the screw and provided power.  Toilets used salt water.  When the boilers had enough fresh water, then it was made available for the crew.  If we were short on fresh water, we had “water hours,” restricting water for a few hours a day.  I took “Navy showers,” where I turned the water on, got wet, then turned it off.  Then I soaped up, quickly turned on the shower, and rinsed.  End.  My wife tells me I take infinitesimally short showers.  I do.  I was a Navy shipboard doc for 2 years: Forty years later, I still say “Sir,” wear my hair short, line up my shirt and zipper, and take Navy showers.

My showers last 1 minute, 90 seconds tops.  Counting waiting for hot water, I use 2-3 gallons per shower.  I can’t imagine a 10 minute shower. Using low flow shower heads to cut use from 30 to 15 gallons to me is ludicrous.  We ought to be using 5. Brushing teeth with the tap running (10 gallons) is unbelievably wasteful.  I use 1 gallon per week.  My breath is fine, and I see a dentist twice a year.  I use an electric shaver; when I use blades, my water use is a pint, not a gallon.

Over time, in the desert, we learned “when it’s yellow, be mellow; when it’s brown, flush it down.”  I flushed the toilet once daily.  As the drought intensified and became semi-permanent in the southwest, we did more: we collected the cold water when we turned on the shower, waiting for it to warm, using it to water trees outside that shaded the house.  We collected gray water from the washing machine, realizing how much we used, watering the trees.  Our sewer bill decreased, too.  In addition to garbage barrels collecting water from the roof, I installed gutters and bought a 200 and three 65 gallon containers.  We were rainwater harvesting before the term was coined.

I found a leak under the main road to our house where water came up through the pavement. Nobody else called it in, although hundreds drove over it daily.  I saved well over a million gallons.  That is 3 acre-feet, a number that everybody ought to know: 1 acre flooded to 1 foot is 325,000 gallons.  That’s easy high school math.  Here is more: There are 7.5 gallons in a cubic foot; 100 cubic feet= 1 CCF=750 gallons= 43.5 CCF per acre foot.  It is our water use for a year, and we conserve.  You can’t understand water problems without understanding numbers and math.  Water hours.

Last summer, I noted a little water running down the street.  I traced it to a house where the family was away.  Stuck sprinklers watered an unnecessary lawn (all lawns in the desert should be banned), wasting 9000 gallons a day, 3 months of our use, until I called that in, too, and their water was turned off.  Water hours.  Yet, the more we did, the more was wasted.  A golf course used regular water, not reclaimed; golf in the desert should be severely restricted, use reclaimed water, and cost much more to play, especially on private courses.  Water hours.

Half of the water used in Phoenix, where water bills are less than Boston (look it up), is for landscaping and swimming pools.  I’d ban new pools and severely limit the landscaping to drip irrigation and shade trees that cool houses.  Water hours.

The Central Arizona Project loses 4.4% of its water annually, nearly 100,000 acre-feet, due to evaporation and leaks.  Covering it would have quadrupled the cost, then $4.4 billion.  Maybe we should begin covering it with solar panels. India and the Netherlands do it.  Given that an acre-foot of water for many fruit trees is worth about $2000, farmers can buy it for $500 and sell it to developers for nearly $6000, Arizona could be losing $50-200 million a year. Covering the Canal starts looking reasonable.

Driving through California’s Central Valley, one sees many signs protesting water use laws and blasting politicians.  California is in an historic drought, yet people act as if the supply is unlimited.  Why is the per capita water use in Fresno five times that of Boston?  Why do restaurants automatically serve water?  California needs water hours, not voluntary cutbacks.  Fresh water is 21st century oil, and if we treated oil this way, one low monthly payment for fuel would entitle one to as much gas as he wanted.  This is crazy; however, half the homes in Sacramento have no water meters. California is a huge producer of food, leading the nation in irrigated acres, using about 33 million acre feet a year, 40 million state-wide.

Some forms of agriculture produce high cash value crops, like almonds; others don’t require as much, like some vegetables.  Alfalfa is water intensive, transpiring a great deal; 70% is fed to cattle to make milk products. When a place has too many people, too few regulations, and tries to grow plants that don’t belong in a place that gets 10-11 inches in a good year (3-5 in a bad), there is a recipe for trouble.  There is a lot of waste.  Water hours.

Water harvesting should be mandatory for new houses.  An inch of rain on 1000 sq ft of roof produces 600 gallons of soft water. My homeowners association was upset about “unsightly” water collection devices.  This is absolutely inane.  A square mile of roofs, about 16,000 normal size houses, in a place with 12 inches of rain a year, produces 1000 acre feet.  Not enough.  But triple that, using more houses and large  buildings, and increase it 69 fold, to deal with all cities of more than 100,000 in California, and you have 207,000 acre feet.  Add in other cities, and the number could be a third of a million.  The average family uses 80 gallons a day for “bathing”.  That should be fewer than 40.  Fifteen million families?  Six hundred million gallons, nearly 2000 acre feet, just by restricting water use a little. Mandatory rationing cut St. Helena’s use by a third….in 2 weeks.  Water hours. 

Given that people kayak in Phoenix, and misters are used to cool people at restaurants, misuse of water is not likely to disappear. I saw them running at a Tucson restaurant 6 hours before opening.  If that is self-regulation, then they should be banned.  Water hours.

Drip irrigation saves water and increases tomato yield.  While labor intensive, I am looking at long term, not short term.  Many in California are hoping March storms will save them, not at all likely, rather than having instituted mandatory cuts 9 months ago. I saw irrigation in Kern County last October that was watering barren field and a nearby roadway near Wasco.  Time, date and place upon request.  Water hours.

Fix leaks.  On board ship, leaks cost us 80 gallons a day.  A faucet losing a drop a second loses 2000 gallons a year.  Think we have a few of those around?  A hundred and sixty waste an acre foot annually.  Think there might be a million of them in LA?  That’s 6000 acre feet.  Ten million in California?  60,000 acre feet.  Stuck flapper valves in a toilet waste water.  Hire people to check toilets in all municipalities.  Fresno had unlimited water use with flat rate billing until 2010; drop per capita consumption to national levels, and one city alone would save 90,000 acre feet.  Water hours.

In a state where another million acre feet of water is desperately needed, I have outlined a way to get perhaps half.  I bet my estimations are lowball.  Utilities should price water appropriately, not raise rates when demand drops, as some do.  Keep rates high for excessive and truly unnecessary water use:  golf courses, misters, families with lawns in arid climates, those with pools, those who won’t fix leaks.  Agriculture needs to be realistic about what can and cannot be reasonably grown in arid climates.  Water use needs to be regulated.  That’s politics, but people will not regulate themselves, unless  one is having a wet dream, pun intended.  

We need 21st century thinking on water, rather than those born in the 20th century thinking in terms of the 19th. We are all on a ship, and fresh water is limited.

Time for water hours.

FRESNO

February 18, 2014

In my moves to Oregon, I  travelled through California, staying overnight, since I drove alone.  Going up, I stopped in Fresno; on the way back, at Bakersfield.  Hauling a trailer, it was a difficult two days, and I was tired, not always in the best mood when I arrived.  I had awakened early, driven well over 700 miles, and had the same ahead of me the following day.

At one hotel, the lobby was full of friends of the night clerk, who was wearing a Fresno State sweatshirt.  That was fine, I thought; maybe she is going to school there and working nights.  The room, however, was not so fine.  As a matter of fact, it hadn’t been made up, something I have encountered before.  It’s very disconcerting. Once, I was told that wasn’t possible. That’s not smart to say to a customer.

I returned to the lobby and asked for another room, explaining the problem.  There was a look of disbelief, but I bit my tongue and stated the facts.  I was given another room, actually more convenient, on the ground floor, but the key didn’t work in the door.  Problem 2.  Now, I was getting annoyed.  I had been on the road about 13 hours, and I just wanted a room.  Finally, I got a key to work, but the handle was stuck.  I returned yet again, and finally got in the room.

There were no apologies, no sense of embarrassment, and no sense of realizing I was a stranger in their town.  That happens too often, even when–or perhaps because–a person is old, like I am.

The next day, I checked out, and nobody asked me anything.  I didn’t say anything, either.  In a way, I understand the lack of interest.  Many who work the night shift, and I have, aren’t paid well, chronically poor, and are trying to get by.  They aren’t in any better mood than I am.  In a sense, their whole life is full of 750 mile daily drives with a trailer, except they are going nowhere.  I try to keep that in mind when I eat at Denny’s, leaving a larger than usual tip, even for poor service, because these people need the money, and I can afford the extra $2 that might just make their day.  Dear Prudence, a Slate columnist, taught me that, when some stockbroker wrote her and said people didn’t deserve great tips.  She ripped him a new one as only Dear Prudence can.

Fast forward a few months, and I am back in Fresno, now at a different motel, because I vote with my wallet. I had the sense to stop early at a Denny’s in Bakersfield for dinner.  The manager had a problem customer at the cash register, who couldn’t figure out his discount and answered “none” for tip. Yes, he was rude, but she should have asked somebody to seat me sooner.  I waited a long time, but the waitress was good and quick.  When I wanted to pay, I could have done without the customer ahead of me using a $100 bill, so the waitress had to find the manager to get change.  Still, I gave the waitress a good tip and arrived in Fresno more rested, but still tired.  I parked the car and trailer where I could, and as I walked to the reception, a woman ran up to me, asking me if I were checking in.  I said I was, and she opened the door for me.  She had checked on another room.  She might have even made it up.

The young woman asked me whether I wanted upstairs or downstairs. That I appreciated, as was the chance to move the car-trailer closer to the room.  I noted her pleasant accent, thought she was South Asian, and asked where she was from: India.  We started talking about India and her life.

Her father wanted her to marry some rich man who would care for her.  She didn’t like that idea and came here in 2007.  She has earned a BSN, now working on her MSN.  Because of regulations, she is not allowed to teach English, although hers is impeccable.  I can understand keeping jobs for locals, but we need many more good English teachers.  I had the same drive, the same stress, but I spent 15 unnecessary, but interesting minutes with the check in clerk. She felt her job was important, because it was a job, and jobs mattered.  She was going to be successful, and if she stayed here, America will do well by her.

The only problem with my stay was a stuck flapper valve in the toilet the next morning, which I adjusted.  Had the same woman been on duty, I would have told her when I checked out.  Alas, somebody took my key and only said good by.

Thoughts to the American hotel industry:  Talk to your customers. Show some interest in them using body language and tone of speech.  I taught myself to watch body language, and I can spot interest or disinterest in me in a moment.  I also can effectively use my body language to say things I wouldn’t dare say verbally. Tell your employees to learn to read and to use body language; it is far more important than “Have a nice day.”

Thoughts to American business:  Stop your “3-4 minute” surveys. I’m not interested, and I doubt most are. They are statistically invalid and poorly written. You want to make the customer happy?  Fix broken systems.  Every time a customer complains, you have a broken system. Fix the system, and listen to your employees, too, for they likely know a lot more about your customers and systems than you might think. You ought to ask every customer one question, only one absolutely essential question:

“How could we have helped you better?”  Trust me, people will speak.

THE RAINBOW BRIDGE

February 14, 2014

It was the eighth time I have done this, bringing a cat in a cage to the vet’s office, knowing that the cage would be empty on the return trip.

Harry had been with us for more than 12 years, ever since he was spotted around our house, looking eerily like another stray we had adopted a year earlier.  Unlike the other, however, Harry was aloof, not letting us near him.  I knew he was a male; I saw him mark the territory one night.

He was right about marking it, more right than either he or I expected.

We left food out, and it disappeared.  But he never came near us.  He wanted nothing to do with humans.

I was in the office, with my wife, both of us with red faces and barely trying to stop sobbing.  Lisa, the vet tech, knew us, and we sat down, as a woman paid her bill.

We put a trap out and kept it open, gradually starting moving food closer and closer to the trap.  Harry, who of course, wasn’t yet named, ate the food but avoided the trap. Finally, after 2 months, we put the food in the trap but left it open.  Harry could come and go into the trap, and he did.  Finally, we set the trap; my wife slept inside, on the other side of the door, a classic “bait and switch” maneuver.

BAM, CRASH; 1 a.m. the trap, plus one very upset large black cat, was on the ground.  My wife picked up the spitting and growling “prize,” putting it in the trunk of the car.

A little boy came up to the cage, and said, “Is that a kitty?”  Fortunately his mother said, “Honey, it is not a good idea to be around other animals here.  They aren’t feeling well.”  I silently thanked her.  

Harry was hauled to the vet, who gave him ketamine through the bars of the trap, since there was no other way to anesthetize him.  Jupiter would completely orbit the Sun before Harry would receive it again.  After neutering, I brought him home, putting him in the back room, where he tried to jump out a closed window, hitting glass.  We figured we wouldn’t keep him, but we waited to see what happened.

We were then taken in a room and sat down.  I had to tilt the cage to get Harry out, because he was at the far end of it.  

In three days, I had Harry purring.  In a week, he was out in the house.  At night, he was  kept in the room, door open, a gate with polyethylene bars blocking exit–we thought.  One night, he appeared in the hallway outside the room, as if the bars didn’t exist.  Two of bars apparently were loose, like station 9 3/4, where he could go right through a door, like Harry Potter, whom J.K. Rowling had recently introduced to the world.  All our cats–we’ve had 18–named themselves.  He would be Harry P., then just Harry.  He remained aloof and his coat was coarse, but  never again was he interested in the outdoors.

I lifted Harry into my arms, stroking his thin frame, every bone easily palpable, his coat so thin that skin was showing.  He buried his head in my elbow.

We had three black strays and wondered if they were related.  Jack arrived on a hot summer day in 1991, appearing on the front porch with one eye swollen and blind.  Nine years later, B.C., (Black Cat) appeared and accepted house life as well.  We didn’t think Jack would survive.  He lived 15 years.  We hoped B.C. would live 15 years; in 2006, he suddenly dropped dead in the hallway one night.

As we signed the permission slip, we asked about the sedative, which we hadn’t used before.  “We have started doing that, lately. Renal failure veins are often small to get into.” Sedation sounded fine, as I continued to stroke Harry, now calmer.

Over time, Harry became fat, 24 pounds, losing weight after one of his buddies died, when less food was available.  His coat became more silky, he stopped biting us, still remaining a little aloof.

“I’ll inject the sedative.”  Harry moved a little, but he quickly settled down.

As time passed, Harry became more sociable, but last year, we noted that he was thinner, 5 1/2 pounds lost in a year.  We thought it was age, but the vet found an abscessed tooth, needing difficult surgery. How that must have hurt, but cats hide pain. We learned then his creatinine was 7, a sign of serious renal failure.

Harry was fully relaxed in my arms now.  What a good boy you have been, Harry P.  Thank you for gracing our lives.

For nine months, we gave Harry fluids under the skin twice a day, with a phosphate binder injected into his mouth.  My wife did most of the work; I figured out how to get the binder into a syringe.  We didn’t think Harry would survive a week, but he made it through summer.  He became more sociable,too; indeed, he was a different cat, losing weight, but nicer.

“I think we’re ready now,” said the vet.  “He’s almost asleep.”  Thank you, Harry, for everything you gave us.  I’m so sorry I wasn’t nicer when you didn’t eat, because I didn’t know how to handle grief.  Boys are taught not to cry, when they should, but they have to direct their emotion elsewhere, and I directed mine towards anger.  I’m learning, Harry.  Thank you for teaching me. 

The vet put a rubber band around the right front leg, cutting a little of the beautiful black hair Harry had over the now visible vein. 

How many times we thought Harry wouldn’t survive a week, when the next day he ate a can of food!  He started chasing one of the other cats, which we loved to see.  His weight, however, relentlessly fell, below 12 pounds, then 11, then to 10.  It took 5 or 6 different cans of food some days for him to eat anything.  It was more difficult.

“I think we are ready.”  The lavender solution was pretty.  I couldn’t look at Harry’s eyes. I have seen life leave eyes before.  It’s incredibly sad, but it taught me compassion. 

Finally, nine months after Harry’s illness, one morning he ate nothing and went away.  My wife appeared, and I said, quietly, “Today or tomorrow.”  She hugged me, both of us in tears, and said, “Today.”  We had trouble finding him.  We blocked hiding places, but he still found a good one.  When cats start to hide, they are saying they are looking for a place to die.  We listened.

As the solution went into Harry’s vein, I felt no movement.  He had been relaxed for several minutes before the solution was injected.  It was over.  In tears, I picked him up, put him on the blanket, curling him up the way he always had slept.  I kissed him, thanked him again, saying, “I will see you at the Rainbow Bridge.

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Harry with his buddy, Ace.

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He liked Gryffindor, too. This has been on my Phone for years.

FIFTIETH ANNIVERSARY

February 11, 2014

“A wilderness, in contrast with those areas where man and his own works dominate the landscape, is hereby recognized as an area where the earth and its community of life are untrammeled by man, where man himself is a visitor who does not remain.” –Wilderness Act of 1964

I am alone at 9453 feet, on a mountain top the way I imagine it, a quarter acre, maybe half, no trees, drop offs up to 1000 feet on all sides.  Above me, swifts are catching insects, their swept wings making identification easy.  I am dehydrated after hiking up on a hot June day, the 32 ounce drink I had at the start long gone before I even reached Josephine Saddle at 7200 feet. I am more than a vertical mile above Green Valley and 5 miles from the trailhead.  A million people live in the area I can see, but not one of them is within three hours of me by trail, and that is the only way up here.

My thirst doesn’t matter; I am higher than any other person in southern Arizona, seeing a wonderful sunset I will never forget, the reds and oranges stunning.  It was worth hiking up from my Baldy Saddle campsite to the top.  I must leave soon, as it is starting to get dark, and some of the trail will not be safe in darkness.  I will awaken tomorrow, away from the rush hour traffic of a large city, in one of the wilderness areas of Arizona, the trailhead little more than an hour’s drive from my house.  Few ever see this place, the Mt. Wrightson Wilderness, my favorite spot in southern Arizona, where I myself am a visitor and will not long remain.

I have camped here alone in a snowstorm, warm inside my sleeping bag, hearing the snow accumulate and then slide down the tent.  I have camped up here five times, a lot of work needed to haul a pack up the Old Baldy Trail, as it is known, but every bit of it worthwhile.  I have taken day hikes, once playing hooky from work for a few hours to come up in a snowstorm, returning to my job that afternoon, completely soaked, but absolutely happy and thrilled to be alive.  I have hiked up here and down the other side to Gardner Canyon, because I had never seen the Gardner Canyon trailhead.  I then turned around and came back up and over.  Wow, was I thirsty that day.  I came up the north side one day and stayed too long, hiking down in the dark with no flashlight, in old growth forest, never once cut, an owl’s sudden hoot making me almost jump off the trail.  That was a great hike.  They all are.  I know the trails like old friends.

From Baldy Saddle, reached from the west by 33 switchbacks, I see Green Valley and the Catalinas north of Tucson.  To the east, about 30 steps, I see Sonoita, Sierra Vista, and south into Mexico.  From the top, I see all of these by just rotating, as is the Earth.

It took much effort to get up here, but that makes wilderness special.  I am getting my reward tonight. I earned this view, through the thirst and soreness I endured. I don’t yet know that later tonight, I will hear a cougar close by.  I need wilderness.  I can’t explain it or put a dollar sign on it, but I need it.  Periodically, I reach a stage in my life where I know I need to get outside and hike somewhere.  It doesn’t have to be long, but it has to be away from people.  I can’t prove it, but I suspect others might become happier if they went into the wilderness, even a short distance, where they too would not long remain. I think mankind still needs wilderness, but perhaps the need has been allowed to atrophy too much.  I needed Mt. Wrightson tonight. Right now, I need to return to my campsite.  The swifts call, still catching bugs, as I start down the rocky trail, the last bit of red still visible in the west.

QUITTING

February 5, 2014

February 1956:  Speculator Ski Area, Adirondack Mountains, New York State.

I was a 7 year-old boy who herringboned up to the rope tow, grabbed the rope, and didn’t let go, until my skis hit the edge of a rut, 50 yards later, and I fell.  Unlike the 100 prior times, however, I got back up, grabbed the rope, immediately falling  head first.  A third time, I went another 100 yards, the fourth, I fell again, but on the fifth. I finally made it to the top, letting go, jubilant.  For the first time, I had made it to the top of the hill. I later became an expert technical skier, but I never forgot that 7 year-old boy.

July 1960:  Massawepie Boy Scout Camp, also in the Adirondacks, on the swim dock, final test for my Lifesaving Merit Badge.  I failed to rescue the instructor, double my weight, on my first attempt.  The second time, I grabbed the skin of his armpit to hang on.  He yelled, “oh, you learned that trick!” throwing me off.  I should have kept trying, but I quit. I earned the merit badge back home.  I always regretted quitting that day.

I saw a “fluff” post on Facebook: “You can’t fail if you don’t give up.”  Not true. Moreover,   quitting is not invariably wrong. Sometimes, one is better off giving up and failing.  Sometimes, one is not better off by succeeding.  Our society believes that hard work is always rewarded and that continuous trying a virtue and quitting a vice.  Sometimes it is true, other times, it is not:

1. Margaret Mitchell tried 38 times to get Gone with the Wind published; J.D. Salinger and Agatha Christie’s works were also rejected before finally accepted.

2. The inventor of the intermittent windshield wiper switch, Robert Kearns, persevered and won $30 million for patent infringement.  His wife divorced him and he spent $10 million in the 14 year process.  He didn’t quit and was vindicated.  Having spent more time with lawyers than I would like, I’m not sure a 14 year battle with lawyers and divorce was worth the $2 million a year he made was worth it, but others may disagree.   I cannot put a dollar cost on a divorce and years spent in acrimonious debate.

For every successful athlete, singer, and entertainer there are hundreds who worked as much, maybe more, and never made it.  One may say, “Yes, but the next time, they might have succeeded.”  Perhaps.  To me, there are few things sadder than those who persevered when they should have quit:  Michael Jordan and Joe Paterno come to mind.  Age is real, and the infirmities that come with it.

Is quitting bad?  Is it worth throwing good money after bad, good time after bad?  At what point ought one give up?

I failed as a statistical consultant, because I knew nothing about marketing.  I then became interested in patient safety and medical error reporting, but after 5 years of trying to develop a confidential reporting system, writing legislation introduced in the Arizona House for two years, I quit. In retrospect, I had no chance, medicine wasn’t ready to learn from errors; perhaps we will some day.

What happened as a result of my failing?  When my parents’ health declined, I was there for them.  When I decided to see places in the world that meant a lot to me, like the Sandhill Crane migration, Isle Royale, the Arrigetch Peaks, total solar eclipses, and the National Parks, I did.  I worked on my writing, won two awards, and asked to write for the medical society, which I did for 9 years.  Those writings are here on the blog, my later articles better than my earlier ones. I became a better writer because failure gave me time to write, time to discover writing was my way to both relax and communicate.

I failed to write a book in 1983, 720 pages, typewritten, about a my experiences serving aboard a Naval ship.  The Naval Institute Press was tentatively interested, asking me to revise it.  Sadly, after my revision, they turned me down; concurrently, a young man named Tom Clancy was submitting material to them.  I quit writing and concentrated on my medical practice, where I succeeded so long as I subjected myself to unreasonable hours, malpractice suits, hurry, arguments about compensation, and constant interruptions.  At 43, I decided to quit, one of the best decisions I ever made.

I worked for the Forest Service in Minnesota for six months, more content than I ever dreamed possible, returning to become medical director of a hospital, a new world, until I quit again, five years later, to become a graduate student in statistics.  When I left medicine, I lost money, power, and influence.  I obtained my Master’s, although had I known I would fail as a statistician, perhaps I might have quit.  From failure, I entered a new world, not only writing, but volunteering, becoming a substitute math teacher, teaching English on line to people in 90 countries, and learning German.

Stopping aggressive treatment of dying patients was my greatest contribution to medicine.  I knew how and when to end life support for patients with irreversible brain injury, long before hospice and The Hemlock Society.  Some doctors save lives, but others know when it is time for a patient to die. Germans call it “ein schöner Tod;” we call it a good death.  I used the word “die,” not “pass on” or “expire,” because DIE is the strongest verb, the only one that belongs with “death.”  I knew when it was time to let go, but I also respected the wishes of those who opted to continue.  Recovery from coma depends upon age, length of time, and cause. There are specific indicators that highly predict irreversible brain injury.

It is not euthanasia to quit treating; indeed, it is dying naturally, rather than with feeding tubes inserted into the abdomen, treating pneumonia, urinary catheters, bed sores, with no possible chance of returning to a normal life.  Many spouses didn’t know they had a choice and were relieved when I gave them one.  How did I know?  I had studied the neurological literature extensively about coma when I trained.  I knew the probabilities, I talked to patients and their families, heard often “he never wanted to be like this,” and discontinued life support, without discontinuing dignity or caring.  There was a sense in medicine that once a tube was placed, it had to stay.  I had no trouble removing tubes when I was certain of the prognosis and the family agreed.  The act was neither easy for the families, nor for me, but I knew how important this final decision was for families.  When my parents reached this stage, when “the door out” opened, I allowed them to go through; I kept my promise to them.  I knew when to quit.

Hanging on to a rope tow or a drowning person is worth persevering; knowing when and when not to persevere is a definition of wisdom.  Perhaps that should have been posted on Facebook.

SURVEYING THE DOMAIN…AND THE RANGE

February 2, 2014

“You have been selected at random….”  I do not enjoy hearing these six words.  A survey.  Two more often used here that push my buttons are “team” and “professional.”

Customer satisfaction has taught at B-schools for a long time, although businesses have done a lot to hurt it, such as the average experience one has calling a business, or just in time inventory, which isn’t (“that will be here in 3 business days.”)  Surveys are now frequent.  I don’t like the questions or the choices; while I buy the product, I don’t buy the inferences they might make from a survey.

Recently, I got three.  Two were from Comcast, following as many calls during an e-mail outage.  If I agree to complete a survey, I get through faster to a human being.  Try it some time. I contacted Comcast twice, later receiving two surveys, answering the second.  By not responding to the first I hurt the assumption of randomness, required for a decent survey.

Comcast told me the survey would take 2 minutes.  There were questions about my satisfaction, having my the question answered, professionalism (undefined, desperately in need of definition today), offering the Website as a source of information (incredibly dumb, if there is an Internet outage), and others.  I hung up at 2 minutes.  They said two minutes, and I gave them two. The other was from Peace Health, which I almost tossed, but decided to fill it out.  There were about 35 questions, too many, so a 3 or a 4 on a Likert Scale didn’t matter a whit to me.  I don’t like averaging Likert scales, either.  Two “5”s and two “1” s average to an “average,” but it suggests there are huge differences in customer satisfaction.

Twenty years ago, medical director of a hospital, I learned we spent $100,000 annually on quarterly surveys, arriving on glossy paper, with nice colors, like a dressed up pig:  pretty, but still a pig.  Only I read them.  I know that, because I went to the Executive Meetings at the hospital and asked a good question:  “How many have read this?”  And a second:  “Has anything changed as a result?”  Answers: No, and nothing, respectively.  The survey asked patients whether their food was hot.  If a patient had 10 meals and 7 were hot, what should they answer?  The survey asked whether the physician or nurse was professional, whatever that means, especially if the patient had several of each.  The return rate was about 5%, and even before I got my stats Master’s, I knew the figure was meaningless.

I proposed a different approach:  we hire one person, far less than $100K including benefits, ditch the company, and call 100 discharged patients every month, picked at random, with all replying, or the non-reply would be considered the worst possible.  This is worthwhile and it conservatively estimates how well one is doing.  We asked three questions:

  1. Did you like the care?  Yes/No.
  2. Would you recommend us to a friend?  Yes/No
  3. What suggestions do you have?

We didn’t learn about hot food, but care results could now be inferred to all patients, and we received good suggestions, too. People will toss most 6 page surveys; three questions from a human might be answered.

I tried this at a hospital in Las Cruces, told that time made a difference when you surveyed, whether the day of discharge or 6 weeks later.  I countered: if people didn’t respond to a random sample, or responded to a call 6 weeks later, the results were worthless.  I lost.

I tried it with the medical society, where we had success. We randomly surveyed primary care physicians about colonic cancer screening with two dichotomous questions, only two.  We used 90% confidence intervals and margins of error of 10%.  This wasn’t Bush v. Gore; this had to do with recommending screening for colon cancer.  The large margin of error and the small confidence interval decreased the needed sample size to about 70, manageable, and we had the finite population correction factor, which helped further.  The latter means that if the sample is a large enough percentage of the population, the sample itself is a significant part of the population: less error.

Confidence intervals are given in percent.  A 90% confidence interval means one is 90% confident the true value is contained in the interval.  The true value (parameter) is unknown and unknowable; the interval either does or does not contain it, so probability is irrelevant.  A 100 similar samples generate 100 confidence intervals, 90 contain the parameter.  Which 90?  We don’t know.

We sent the questionnaires by mail and called those offices or physicians who didn’t reply.  It worked.  We got all but 1 response, worthwhile.  We made inferences to all primary care physicians in the Medical Society with high confidence and reasonable error. Cost?  Small.

A decade later, I was asked to help in a survey about insurance companies.  Unfortunately, too many questions were asked, because “all were important.”  They weren’t. The response rate to the survey was poor, and physicians who were supposed to call their colleagues didn’t. I was asked to call; I replied as the statistician, I was not carrying the flag for what I considered a suboptimal survey, which should have taken a quarter year to complete but instead a quarter of a decade.  Really.  When I performed two sample proportion tests, a physician asked me whether it were the right test.  I resisted asking him if he performed the right tests on his patients.

If you want a good survey, randomize, ask 1 or 2 questions, use 90% confidence intervals and high margins of error.  Randomize a thousand or a a hundred thousand people, sample 100, obtain all responses, and you will have 90% confidence that the true result for the million is within 8-9% of your point estimate, your sample result. I can prove it mathematically. Do you need 80% +/- 2%?  Or can you live with 60% +/- 9%?  I submit the latter is useful.  Want more information? Ask two more questions and survey another 100 at random. The expected value is 1 in 10,000 will be called twice.

Sampling is an incredibly powerful technique, but it has to be used carefully.  Read a newspaper article sometime and note how percentage of respondents gradually becomes percentage of people.  That is incorrect.

Please act on the results.  If the survey sits in an office unread, it wastes time and money.  Asking for suggestions is useful to generate good ideas. If you want to call everybody afterwards, don’t ask how professional their people are.  Ask only how you can do better.  Trust me, you will hear a lot.  People like to answer that question.  Then it is your turn.

Act on the suggestions.

THANKS, “PRE,” YOU ARE STILL AN INSPIRATION

January 29, 2014

It was crazy, I knew it was, but I needed to do it.  I was depressed, it was raining hard outside, 39 F. (4 C.), but I decided to go for a 3 mile (5 km) run.  I live in Eugene; Track Town, USA, home of the Olympic Trials, NCAA championships, and a runner’s mecca.  I’ve camped in pouring rain many times; I can certainly run in this weather. I MUST run in it today.

Earlier, I got a video link from a friend showing how a former Attorney General in New Jersey used a data-driven approach to reduce crime.  I was depressed, mostly because I was jealous of her data-driven success, something for 3 decades I never could achieve.  Jealousy is one of the seven deadly sins.

I put on sweats, my rain jacket, a neck warmer, hat and hood, and went out.  I wondered if I would see others running, but it didn’t matter.  I was out there, running.  I needed to goAt the outset, I should have walked, but I immediately started running, not fast, but I wasn’t walking.

This video was on TED, and I usually look at links or books people recommend to me.  As a result, I learn a lot. I seldom, however, send links or recommend books to others, despite the fact I do a great deal of reading in both English and German.

I soon reached Alton Baker Park, feet wet, and just a bit cold, but my wool socks would soon warm me up.  This wasn’t bad so far, but it was raining harder.  Let’s see what happens.

The reason I seldom send anybody anything is I have sadly noted  that almost nobody, and I mean that word, nobody, has ever looked at any of my reading recommendations. Seldom has anybody asked for my recommendation, and I doubt those who did ever followed through.  It was discouraging, because as I learned from others, I got the feeling that others felt I have read nothing important. I taught myself to read when I was 3.

I haven’t been able to run at all for 3 months, because I had patellar tendonitis, which I had never had in 50 years of running.  I missed running.  This past week, I started again, first 100 steps at a time, 4 or 5 times.  It went well.  I walked 10 miles a day.  So far, so good, as I headed towards the Willamette River.

I recommended a New Yorker article about the new ecosystem discovered in the crown of California Redwoods, and it was unread. Same with Our Darkening Ocean, a must read in my opinion. The Khan Academy depresses me, because the man is brilliant, but basically does what I am capable of doing, but was unable to do.  I couldn’t even get local schools interested in my many skills, despite extensive efforts.

Within days, I was running 200, 300, 500, and 600 steps at a time.  It felt great.  Today, in the rain, I decided to go for 1000 when I hit the Pre-trail.  Steve Prefontaine died far too young, but I bet he would have been happy to see an old guy running in the rain.  And loving it.

When I was on the Medical Society Board of Directors, one of my detractors always gave me “reading assignments,” which I called them.  When people came to the monthly meeting, that individual was greeted warmly.  I wasn’t, but rather given articles to read, most of which I either knew about or was trying to implement.  I got the sense others felt I didn’t know much, and if I would only read these myriad books and articles, I would become more knowledgable.

I didn’t see another runner, but now my feet were warm, and I was cruising.  Five hundred steps, 600, 800, and 1000.  Wow, that wasn’t bad at all.  Nobody out here, and it is wide open and not dark, just raining. 

I was counting complications in carotid artery surgery (CEA) in my hospital in 1984, and I am interested whether hospitals track the following: CEA complication rate, non-elective readmission within 15 or 30 days, clean case wound infection rate; percentage of pre-operative antibiotics given within the proper time window, and the number of deaths where a significant medical error was causal. I tracked the first four 18 years ago and espoused the last in 2001, believing all are decent indicators of medical quality.  Yes, I know others, too.

The Pre-Trail is long, so I thought I’d do another 1000 steps.  No problem.  No runners, either.  Wow, am I crazy?  No, I am having fun in the rain, like a kid!

For those who are concerned about obesity, do you know the percentage of obese 6th graders in one district in your local school system?  I knew it in Tucson in 2010.  It was easy; the data were obtained, I analyzed them, and the results frightening.  I showed the results to the administrators.  They assured me there would be a meeting with other district superintendents. I never heard another word; the Medical Society’s Executive Director wrote, also hearing nothing.

I’ve always been a kid, curious.  Maybe that’s why I read what people send me,  until I either finish it or find it so poorly written or wrong that I stop.  I will read climate change articles until the first pejorative word.  Then I’m done.  It has never, and I mean never, taken long.  Sometimes, I don’t get past the title.

I am now out of date, but I wonder if medicine has a reporting system for medical errors akin to aviation.  We do not have a decent estimate of deaths with a known margin of error (a necessary requirement for every estimate), and with simple sampling techniques, we could know.  I promulgated this from 2001 until I quit in 2006.  Sadly, I was not an attorney general.

I left the Pre trail, went to MLK Blvd. and headed home.  Wow, this is great.  The people in the cars must think I’m nuts.  I saw no other runners, either.  I might be the craziest guy in Eugene! Or maybe one of the happiest.  What happened to the depression I had?

So, when I see an young, former attorney general of a populous state talk about data-driven crime statistics as if this were something new, I get a bit jealous and depressed.  I was pushing this stuff when she was in high school, and we still aren’t doing it the way we should.

Where did I go wrong?  You didn’t, guy.  Many try; few succeed.  Today, nobody, it appeared, tried to run the Pre-Trail.  You did, and you succeeded.  You are now happy, and many who own more would give a lot to feel the way you do.

FROM “NUMBER PLEASE” TO A 6000 MILE DISTANT QUERY ABOUT SCOURING PADS

January 28, 2014

In 1953, I first picked up a telephone receiver, hearing, “Number, please” (notice the please, now an endangered word).  Our telephone number (we called it a telephone) was Hillside 2765.  It didn’t matter on the dial, because we didn’t have dials. We neither made nor received calls during dinner, and answering a telephone call was a priority.

Twenty years later, James Garner had an answering machine on The Rockford Files, and his car phone was then high tech.  I called my wife from the Philippines, when the USS ST. LOUIS was in port; it was a big deal.  Fifteen years later, we didn’t believe that long distance phone calls some day would not incur additional charges. My first cell phone was in 1990, the “brick era”.  Today, we need an answering machine to screen 95% of our telephone calls, which ask for money, call during dinner, and even late into the evening.

When I see people talking to themselves, it is not psychosis, which it used to be, or discussing one’s problems with oneself, but talking on the phone. Hello is more difficult to say in public, when many are listening to music or using their phone. Formerly, when we called a store, we spoke to a human. Today, we get a menu beginning with “unusually high call volume,” and ending with “your call is important to us,“ which it is not. Things used to be stock, before “just in time” inventory was invented.  Now, items must be ordered.

Smart phones allow us to access the world from just about anywhere in the world, although there are places where it is impossible to do so. Such places are interestingly the most beautiful I have ever seen:  Alaska’s Brooks Range, Arctic Canada, the Quetico-Superior, Isle Royale, and Great Basin National Park.

I turn my smart phone off at night, because I may get calls from those who aren’t aware of time zones or my sleep patterns.  Through Whatsapp, I have been asked–from Brazil– the difference between a scouring pad and a scouring towel, which may be found quickly on Google.  I listen to conversations in public about people and things I would just as soon not hear, and for the first time wonder whether my family history of deafness in late life might yet be a blessing.

On the bright side, headphones made boom boxes obsolete, so people can destroy their hearing silently, without bothering others.  Headphones do have a disadvantage, however.  While looking for a building on the University of Oregon campus; half the students didn’t know where it was, and the other half were wearing headphones.

Mail used to require pen, paper, an envelope, stamp, and going to the post office.  The stamp cost 3 cents. One corresponded with friends by mail; writing back was polite.  We wrote thank you and sympathy notes, saying specific things about the gift or the person who died.  More than one has commented my sympathy note was the best note they had received. I still have thank you notes from former patients; somehow, a CD containing them isn’t the same and may be unreadable in a decade.

Thank you notes for wedding presents were a necessity, not only for politeness, but to ensure the sender the gift arrived.  My wife and I wrote ours all before our wedding.  It was easy, and we personalized each one, for it was expected.  My parents used to have a large tray of Christmas cards, all personalized.  This year, I got four, two in mid-January. Back then, typed notes saying how stellar everybody in their family was were frowned upon.

We didn’t use calculators but slide rules, which got us to the Moon.  Calculators have  produced a generation of teachers who believe memorization of the multiplication tables is wrong, students who can’t subtract 8 from 10 without a calculator and can’t divide 3 into 12 by hand. I am not exaggerating.  Clerks counted change accurately.  Yesterday, a clerk at Dutch Brothers gave me an extra dollar in change. I gave it back, because I like the company.  Once, a clerk argued with me, so I kept the money.  Not knowing math is a tax on those who don’t.  Don’t expect Republicans to complain about that tax. They count on ignorance.

We taught writing: the act and the result. I can’t remember when I last saw a young person hold a pen properly.  Handwriting today is sloppy, and I say that as a physician.  Grammar is often not taught, because “people pick it up.”  No, they don’t.  “Whom,” one of my favorite words, is disappearing, and “gonna” and “wanna”  were considered by one language Website as correct, until I made a stink about it.  Nominative case is considered formal, rather than….nominative, and “these kind”  and “these ones” abound.  I find it ironic that many of the “English only” folks can’t write English properly.  If you don’t know English rules, please feel free to contact me.  I love teaching the most dynamic, beautiful language on Earth.

We can talk world-wide on Skype, making language instruction with a native speaker possible, once unheard of.  We may e-mail instantaneously and access information that used to be stored in large volumes of books called encyclopedias, which were once sold door to door.  On a German professor’s advice, I recently ordered a grammar book from Germany before I left his building.  Twenty minutes later, I sent my wife a picture of my standing on Autzen Bridge over the Willamette. This is great.

However, most of my e-mails go unanswered, ostensibly because “people are busy,” although “Dear Mr. Smith, We regret to inform you that we have no need for your skills to teach 6 subjects at our school.  Sincerely yours, xxxx” takes 24 seconds.  I timed it.  Much on the Internet is worthless, inaccurate, porn, and a forum for nasty people who formerly had no world-wide public voice.  I consider the routine daily emails from West Africa a price I pay for e-mail.

Tonight, an Asian woman, whom I had often helped, wanted to chat, proudly announcing she was currently chatting with a woman in Brazil.  I told her to continue; I felt it was time for dinner, I did not feel like being second in her priorities. Language websites are great for non-English speakers to learn English.  I have found them disappointing to learn German, French, or Spanish. These three languages are not nearly as tolerant of accents as we are; corrections are seldom explained. I explain mine. I am optimistic some day the Websites will improve. They are still new.

I have lived through changes in technology and the world that will continue in ways I can’t even dream of.  The winners will be those who adapt.  I hope that politeness, curiosity, willingness to change views in the face of new evidence, respect, friendship, and the ability to embrace diversity will thrive. The record suggests the opposite.  I hope I am wrong.

SOMETHING GOOD FROM THE TRAGEDY OF K-129

January 27, 2014

I often have online chats with people that delve into bad areas: politics and religion.  I avoid religion, because it is impolite to discuss it, other than to perhaps learn what somebody believes. Politics, however, I don’t so quickly avoid.  I ought to learn.

Today, a Russian friend on Skype began a discussion about how a US submarine collided with a Russian submarine, killing a Russian sailor.  Immediately, I was on “high alert,” because of the sentence, because I had no body language or voice behind it, and because my country was being criticized from abroad.  Oh, not just from abroad, but from Russia, and being 65, one can imagine how my life has been flooded with opinions about Russia.

A quick Google search led me to many places of interest, reminding me of when the Thresher sank, in 1963, still unknown as to why.  I vividly remember that.

This particular incident occurred five years later, well northwest of Hawaii.  K-129 sank without notable reason.  There are many such possibilities, but despite part being salvaged, the answers are still not clear.  Today, the cause of the disaster is believed by many in Russia to have been due to a collision with the USS Swordfish, although “officially” no US submarine was within 300 nm.  I suspect there may well have been an accident on board K-129, since these are most unforgiving vessels when mistakes are made or key systems fail.

My friend continued, saying the US got to the site the first.  We did, after the then Soviets had tried and failed to find it.  We had better sonar at the time, and we had the advantage of triangulation.  That led to the salvage operation, which was incomplete.

I did not like the tone of the conversation, which seemed critical.  I became excessively formal, which I do when I become annoyed or angry, and I admitted that.  I said it was a good time to end the conversation, which to me was going badly.  Regarding why the US found K-129, I again mentioned triangulation and better sonar that we had.

The other person typed back, “I see your point of view.”  Suddenly, the sky cleared.  She had said the magic words:  the notion “Maybe you are right” or “Maybe I was not correct.”  My first response was to comment that was one of the nicest sentences she had ever written.

Then, I went through all the possibilities for what could have happened to the submarine, including covert operations we had that nobody in my position will ever know.  I opened myself up to explain how these possibilities existed, which five minutes earlier, was completely contrary to what I had been thinking.

This is the idea that Stephen Covey promulgated, of “Seek first to understand, then to be understood.”  Neither of us started there, but my friend did first, and the effect on me was profound.  Such behavior should not be counterintuitive, but it is to many.  When we argue, we are often so busy thinking what to say next that we fail to listen to the other side.  Listening takes time; listening with a sense of trying to understand takes even more.  Many things that take time on the front end save far more on the back end.

I used the technique often with others when I was a hospital medical director, when people called, complaining about the care.  I would initially try to understand all facets of the complaint.  I would summarize the person’s view, not only in their words, but in their emotions, too. If I weren’t correct, I continued until I could summarize the complaint to their satisfaction, asking them as often as I needed, “Do you feel I understand the entire nature of your complaint?” I could feel, over the phone, the anger go out of the person’s voice.  They were expecting quite the opposite; I was neither agreeing with them nor defending my institution.  I was only trying to understand them, nothing more.  I then asked the caller what they wanted me to do.  Some problems I could fix, but a surprisingly large number of people were satisfied that they had been understood by another human being, something called “validation.”

The next time in an argument with someone, I will again try that technique.  It has been a while since I have used it, mostly because I do not spend a lot of time in the public eye.  It takes time, and validating somebody does not mean agreeing with them. Nor does it mean one is weak in allowing openness to new ideas, although many in this country believe that.  Validating does not allow the other side a “free pass” to avoid listening to my side:  “Seek first to understand, then to be understood.”  So far, I have stressed the first part.  I have my turn, too, once I have understood the other side, and a right to my opinion.  My opinion, however, will now be given knowing what the other person believes and why.  By understanding their thoughts, I understand their view, which, while different from mine, allows me to choose what I should and should not say. They are more likely to give me the same courtesy if I give it to them first.

What happened to K-129?  I honestly don’t know.  Does anybody?  I don’t know that, either.  What did happen is that two people today avoided a fight over its fate.