Posts Tagged ‘A different side of medicine’

24 x 7

June 21, 2014

Recently, I read a post about how the children of the ‘70s survived, despite all the problems they encountered: recalled toys, like lawn darts; not wearing seat belts; no helmets; and leaving kids unattended. Lawn darts caused a few injuries and one death; 12 high school and college students die annually from football, but a lot more play football than threw lawn darts.  It might not have been unreasonable to ban them.  Given football’s propensity to cause brain damage, I think the game must change, a tall order in this country.

We don’t need helicopter parents, not letting their children discover the world for themselves.  Kids need to experiment.  But some experiments we know aren’t a good idea, and we don’t want kids repeating them.  Diving into unknown water is one of those.  Not wearing a seatbelt is another.  I remember when cars didn’t have seat belts; people who first encountered seat belts in cars thought they were weird, like we were going to go flying.  On holiday weekends, we saw in the paper numbers of dead (hundreds) from motor vehicle accidents.  Since 1960, the absolute death rate has fallen, despite a near doubling of population.  The actual death rate per 100,000 is half of what it once was.  Seat belts are the major reason.

Helmets save lives, too.  Recently in my city, an 18 year-old girl hit her head after falling off a skateboard.  She got back on, a little while later was short of breath, collapsed and died.  This was almost certainly due to an epidural hematoma, with the classic lucid interval, and could have been prevented by a helmet.  Anecdote?  Sure.  But data support helmet safety.

Second hand smoke may not have caused cancer yet in the generation born in the ‘70s, but they are still young.  Wait until they become 50 or 60, and some who never smoked die from lung cancer.

The issue is not that you got away with it, and therefore it was safe.  That is Challenger-type of thinking. Challenger was unsafe to fly at the ground temperature it was at.  We had plenty of evidence to suggest that, but no catastrophe had occurred, so launch was allowed.  The issue is probability.  The probability I will die in a motor vehicle accident is very low.  But I can make it lower by wearing a seat belt, which then makes the airbag useful.  The probability I will get cancer from second hand smoke is low, but I can make it less by not being around it.   Smokers can live long lives and non-smokers can die young, but the probability is against such an occurrence.

I continued to write that in my youth, we had 3 TV channels, not hundreds.  We did not have Nancy Grace, Fox News, or Keith Olbermann.  Last year, after the Asiana crash at San Francisco, we had extensive coverage, where experts were continuously asked to offer opinions about something about which they had limited facts.  “Dead air” is an ironic killer in 24 x 7 news, and it has to be filled, but if the filler is conjecture, and if it is repeated often enough, the conjecture becomes treated as fact.  Politicians have known that for decades.

If child abduction and murder by strangers were 26 times higher than it is now, we would have a national campaign to protect children.  Come to think of it, we do.  And it works.  The problem is that a child is 26 times more likely to die in an auto crash and 20 times more likely to die at the hands of a family member than a stranger.  But 24 x 7 coverage of an Amber Alert overplays the idea that children are always in imminent danger, when they aren’t.

The idea that we are just seconds away from death at any moment, “It could happen tomorrow” on The Weather Channel, the idea that but for a super hero or a first responder, our lives could be snuffed out in a second, is wrong.  We need counts of deaths, we need proof of dangers, if we can determine such, and they must be peer-reviewed.  Mike to The Weather Channel:  the most dangerous weather system on Earth is a stalled high pressure system.  Heat-related fatalities comprise a plurality of weather related deaths in the US, drought is the cause of more than half of all worldwide weather-related deaths.  Showing storm chasers near electrical storms does not help teach people that lightning annually kills more people here than hurricanes, even with Katrina’s toll factored in.

Such 24 x 7 coverage often pits two “experts” against each other in the name of equal time, whether or not the science is equal.  Climate change is an example. Or, it asks multiple experts to speculate, when speculation may be outright wrong, either because the facts aren’t clear or the reasoning isn’t.  In a country with over 300 million people, there are daily tragedies.  Indeed, each of us in our own lives has tragedy strike numerous times. On an average day, most of us have things happen that we don’t like.  It is probability, and low probability outcomes with large numbers of events lead to a significant expected value of these uncommon outcomes.

There is significant news every day.  It would be nice if it were reported and then left alone until further information becomes available.  Breaking news is not helpful if it glues people to the TV screen, with experts trying to comment upon things they can’t effectively comment upon.  It is akin to diagnosing a patient based upon what they write in a letter or say over the phone.  A good doctor will use extreme caution here.  A good journalist should, too.

 

 

 

BROKEN SYSTEM: C2 FIXING IT

June 11, 2014

An elderly man is seen in a major hospital in a large city with neck pain following an automobile accident.  He is evaluated with neck X-Rays, read as normal, and discharged in a cervical collar.  A day later, he goes to another hospital in another large city with the same complaint and is found to have a fracture of C2, the second cervical vertebra, the so-called “hangman’s fracture”, because this bone is broken in hanging, compressing the spinal cord above where the phrenic nerve, which runs the diaphragm and breathing, exits.

The man will survive, and he will survive without deficits, although he will require a surgical procedure to stabilize the fracture.  Elderly people tend not to complain about head and neck pain the way younger people do.  When I practiced, new onset headache and neck pain in the elderly was something I took seriously.  You won’t read about this in books; a lot of neurology I learned in practice.  I noticed things, and I counted.

Had the man been rear-ended or even had a minor fall, he could have died suddenly.  At his age, with no autopsy, he might have been diagnosed as “heart attack,” with the outpouring of grief and comments about his life cut short.

And nobody would have noted the error.

The system will continue unchanged, with the first hospital’s staff thinking they provided high quality care, not knowing that they made a major error; they missed an odontoid (the name of that part of C2, the axis) fracture.  Somewhere in their clinical evaluation, they failed.  They don’t need to be sued, nor do they need to be publicly humiliated or embarrassed.  They need to learn from this error.   I learned medicine through gamesmanship and humiliation when I made a mistake; making people feel fearful, stupid or embarrassed (or sued) isn’t how they learn.

Ironically, 12 years ago, I went to this hospital and explained to the CEO why we needed a reporting system for medical errors.  He told me that they had one of the best systems in the country.  If that were truly the case, for this problem to occur a dozen years later says the quality of our programs to prevent errors needs immediate attention.

Doctors make mistakes.  They are human.  They make errors for all sorts of reasons: There may be insufficient knowledge, hurry, distractions, interruptions, lack of sleep, shift changes, miscommunications, and other reasons.  To assume a doctor is perfect is to deny reality.

What is needed is recognition of this reality and building of systems robust enough to find problems before they become critical.  How the system works is a matter of involving those who are involved.  It doesn’t come from the government, although if the medical profession doesn’t change, it will some day, and will have all the problems that come from government regulation.  Changes don’t come from the CEO or the head of the emergency department either.  They come from involving the doctors who work in this department, the nurses, the technicians, the people who first see these patients, the first responders who bring them there, and the radiology department.

The question to be answered is this:  How do we ensure we never miss this problem again?  The goal should be 0 misses, which means that part of the solution has to be followup with the patient, the way my veterinarian calls me at home the day after she does dental surgery on my cat.  If a cat can get better followup medical care than a human, then I have a major complaint with the medical system in America.

Hubris.  “World class.”  “We will take care of it.”  “We don’t need you.”  “Centers of excellence.” “99.99% of our patients do fine.”  The last I particularly worry about, because it means that 1 in 10,000 does not do fine, and if it is wrong-sided surgery, that is 2 cases a year in a busy hospital.  There are some things where percentages are appropriate, and there are others where counts are better.  There should be 0, null, zero, cases of missed odontoid fractures after an automobile accident.  Does everybody need a CT scan of the neck?  No.  Who should get one?  Look at the literature.  We put people in cervical collars routinely, when they have no neck pain, no neurological findings, no drug or alcohol abuse, and no tenderness to palpation of the neck.  Having all of these negatives was shown two decades ago not to require a collar.  Yet, we do it anyway, “just in case”.  In case of what?

I am telling the medical community to fix their broken systems, for they are broken when an important bone is broken and not recognized.  We have the ability to easily diagnose these problems when they occur, and we know enough about algorithms to know when we should work these patients up further, and when we do not need to.

I get follow-up surveys from nearly every company I deal with.  Amazon now surveys the packaging process.  I don’t know if anybody actually does anything based on these surveys, but if there is a mistake, they sure hear from me.  I would bet a great deal of money the hospital never called the patient to find out how he did.

If Comcast, for heaven’s sake, surveys, and if my veterinarian calls me to ask about my cat, it would appear maybe medicine ought to start doing the same thing.  Aviation has been investigating errors and disseminating the results for 40 years.  In 2001, I suggested medicine do the same.  I contacted 64 different groups.  Nothing happened.  Fine, don’t use my system, but put something in place to address this problem, because it happened once and it shouldn’t happen once; you guys aren’t learning from your mistakes, and you aren’t even counting.  

I wonder in the past 13 years how many hangman’s fractures were missed, causing death.

I wonder if in the next 13 years we will address the issue.  The smart money bets no.

 

OLD SCHOOL

June 9, 2014

While hiking today, a woman my age commented that her 89 year-old father, an “old school” doctor, loved medicine more than anything else, volunteering in medicine after he had retired, 27 years earlier.  I was jealous.  I burned out in medicine, and nobody needs a neurologist as a volunteer abroad, where most major medical issues are handled by surgeons. Come to think of it, not much was needed from neurologists here at home, either, except when it came to people with normal tests, post-surgical disasters, and chronic pain.  Looking back, probably the best thing I did was to know when enough was enough and did the thankless job allowing patients to die without further intervention.

I was the one who heard the comment, “We won’t know the extent of damage until he wakes up,” and replied, “he won’t wake up.”  People didn’t like this truth.  I used the word “die,” one of the strongest words in the English language, not “pass on” or “expire.”  I took issue with miracle full recoveries after years in coma, when these people were either vegetative or severely disabled.  Misquoted anecdotes and reflexive smiling in vegetative states has led to numerous patients being supported in irreversible coma for weeks, months, or in some instances years.  I discontinued tubes, when doctors and nurses both believed once a tube was placed, it had to stay.  No it didn’t.  I took the first responder “saves” and stopped the ventilator a week later, when the patient still showed decerebrate rigidity and would not survive.  I told more than one family I was a “hard marker,” and “he squeezed my hand” did not count, if a patient could not hold up three fingers to command.  I listened to “he never wanted to be like this,” and if the time were right, acted.  These actions in retrospect had a great deal of value, but made me unpopular.  I was told I would deal with my parents’s deaths differently, but I didn’t. I kept my promise to them.

When there were no living wills, my job was more difficult, which is why I was incensed when the concept of paying doctors to discuss death with the elderly was referred to as “Death Panels.”  I hope many of these ignorant people may some day understand.

To me, “old school” doctors remind me of “the good old days,”  during which we had legal segregation, unsafe cars, frequent plane crashes, drunkenness was funny, smoking was cool, and adult women were “girls.”  On the other hand, we didn’t have the singing commercial, “your call is important to us,” and weren’t addressed by our first name by a stranger a third our age. In the “golden years of medicine,” when I trained, doctors were king.  Nobody questioned their actions, when questioning should have occurred.  “See one, do one, teach one,” was a problem to those of us who simply couldn’t do one right.  We didn’t track outcomes, we hid errors, we referred to friends, rather than those who had the best outcomes.

In the “good old days,” patients didn’t expect as much; we couldn’t do as much.  Medicine was simpler, costs were less, charity care was expected, and patients stayed in the hospital a lot longer.  It was a different world.  We had poor ventilators, so pneumonia was called the friend of the elderly, except now a ventilator can tide some over and lead to resumption of normal life.  Cancer was a disease of children, not adults, as it is today.  We did disfiguring radical mastectomies and kept heart attack patients in bed 6 weeks, both procedures harmful and long since abandoned. Mental illness was treated by commitment to awful hospitals, although the present “right” to not take medication and to live on the street is the current price.  I’m not sure where we should go with that one.  No firearms for them would be a start.

Technology changed the world, along with a medical arms race among hospitals from CT, MRI, and helicopters (about 10 deaths a year are caused by medical helicopter crashes, making it one of the most dangerous occupations).  Scans are expensive; CT radiates more than most doctors realize.  Doctor’s labs were found not to be good, privacy wasn’t, leading to HIPAA, which has created issues for non-relative “best friends,” and the profession almost bankrupted the country by charging fees they set and expected to be paid.  Lawsuits occurred, which seldom brought justice to many who deserved it, adversely affected the physician-patient relationship, and a reason I left medicine. 

Medicine in the old days I compare to Phoenix in the old days.  It was nice, a lot smaller, people liked it, and all was fine, but completely unsustainable.  We have known for a long time medicine limits access; good care isn’t affordable for everybody.  We haven’t wanted to address the issue, but it won’t go away.  [Phoenix is unsustainable, for there is no way we can continue growth where rainfall is diminishing, the climate is warming, and water supplies are tenuous.]

Medicine has opportunities and a potentially wonderful future.  The solutions to the problems, however, will not be implemented, because as much as voters say they want politicians to tell the truth, no politician, no matter how charismatic, can tell the truth and be elected.  I don’t have the charisma that the Republican challengers for Arizona’s 8th CD have had, but I am smarter than they are and better educated.  But try to tell voters that we can improve access to and quality of health care only by increasing tax rates, including a net worth tax, an investment tax, and concomitantly decrease military spending to true defense, not wars.  We need a reporting system for medical errors, and in the era of computers our inability to have medical statistics 6 months after the end of a year, rather than 4 years later, is inexcusable, appalling and achievable. There is absolutely no way anybody can get elected saying the above, but I think the above is close to the “truth.”

Old school medicine was easier.  We didn’t worry about cost of hip and knee implants, because we didn’t do joint replacement.  Trauma patients died, “tragically,” because the skills we now have didn’t exist.  Breast cancer presented as an eroding mass, not a minimally invasive lesion that could be excised, radiated, and treated with aromatase inhibitors.  We didn’t have HIV, pulse oximetry, and colonoscopy, which saved my life.  GI bleeds were irrigated with ice water, rather than treated quickly with endoscopy.  People with ulcers had infusions of milk, rather than drugs, occasionally exsanguinated, not cured with endocscopy.  Cholecystectomy was 2 weeks in the hospital, not outpatient.  Prostate cancer presented with fractures due to bone metastasis, not caught early.

Where will we go with medicine?  Every generation of doctors is at the dawn of a new era.  The “giants” in medicine and the “golden years” were neither large nor golden.  They performed in their world.  We must now perform in ours….better.

WHERE’S THE BEEF?

May 30, 2014

Twenty years ago, medical director of a hospital, I took a call from a woman who wanted to know how many Abdominal Aortic Aneurysms (AAA) her husband’s surgeon had repaired the prior year at our facility.  She asked a good question, because the surgery is difficult, fraught with risk, even when done electively, which in this instance it would be.  Too often, it is done after the aorta ruptures.  My cousin’s husband died of a ruptured AAA; I have dealt with the issue emergently, and it is difficult to control the bleeding while simultaneously repairing the vessel.

I didn’t know the answer.  Therefore, I had no idea her husband’s chances of survival, how long he would likely be hospitalized, or his condition six months later.  We didn’t track that.  It took me four years to get the hospital to track outcomes from cardiac surgery, after I exploded one night in the ICU saying that I had been consulted 26 times in 270 open heart cases in one year.  Consulting a neurologist after a heart case usually doesn’t bode well.

I mention this, because AAA is one of the outcome measurements Leapfrog uses in determining how well a hospital performs.  So is Aortic Valvular Replacement.  The Tucson hospitals that used Leapfrog scored no better than “C”; one scored “D”.  Some of these hospitals had marketed themselves as being “one of America’s top 100 hospitals.”  It seemed that they were not quite as good as they thought they were.

Leapfrog tracked drug errors, too, and no hospital in Tucson scored better than “C”.  On 2 May 2002, I met with administrators at University Hospital in Tucson to outline my reporting program to reduce medical errors.  A year earlier, I had met with their cardiac surgery program to help track outcomes better.  I can’t believe I was so naive to think that I, who had practiced, been an administrator, had a Master’s in statistics, and 2 months earlier had written an op-ed on an error reporting system we needed in medicine would take on Big Hospitals.  Capitals mine.

Both groups wanted to know, in an unfriendly tone, who I was.  Being from the same city was a minus; had I been from outside, I might have had more credibility.  It would have helped if I were good-looking, exuded charisma, and showed glossy paper with colorful bar graphs, rather than having sound ideas and a quiet demeanor.

Needless to say, the cardiac surgery program wasn’t interested, and I was assured, that second of May, that University Hospital had “one of the best safety records in the country.”  They gave me no data.  They wanted to know what software I would use. I didn’t need software; I needed reports of errors in order to understand them better.  Unfortunately, computers and charisma mattered more to them.

Leapfrog was initiated by a group who had the smarts, the looks, the networking ability, and the leadership skills I lacked.  My ideas were ahead of theirs.  In 1974, I was counting outcomes in medicine when I was an intern.  I was selecting my surgeon to do carotid surgery in the mid-1980s, based upon his outcomes.  I raised concerns about our cardiac surgery program in 1990.  I wasn’t surprised that hospitals were graded “C.”

Every member of my immediate, now small family, has suffered from a medical error.  People make mistakes.  I accept that.  People should learn from them, too, which they often don’t.  For years, we had lousy data and lousy tracking systems.  No, we had no data and no tracking systems.  We hadn’t a clue, and we let Big Medicine, called the Joint Commission, dictate what hospital quality was.  I met with the Joint Commission, too, on 14 August 2001, in Chicago, at my expense.  They were quite interested, so they said, but I never heard again from them.  No e-mails, no calls, no response to my written requests, nothing.

It takes 30 seconds to compose and send an e-mail saying one is not interested.  They weren’t  too busy.  They were rude, arrogant, and wrong, as wrong as Condoleezza Rice had been 8 days earlier and the Bush administration would be four weeks later.  The only difference is a lot more people die from medical errors every year than died on 9/11.  We just don’t know how many.  Our estimates are bad, and the margin of error of those estimates is seldom given.  That violates a basic rule of statistics.

We should be tracking outcomes of common procedures in medicine.  When I broke my hip in an accident, the surgeon had no idea I had done well until I wrote him.  I fractured my fifth metacarpal, had a cast for four weeks, and told that alcoholics often took off their casts with no sequelae.  When I was told I needed two additional weeks of the cast (which did not change the angulation of my metacarpal), the comment my father made was “that is what your doctor learned to do where he trained.”

“Why?” I asked, “don’t we know whether somebody with a broken metacarpal even needs a cast?  Why don’t we know the optimal time? Do metacarpals heal depending upon geography?”  This is not a rare injury.  If we don’t need a cast, wouldn’t that save money and time?  How many other conditions don’t we know the results?  Perhaps some shouldn’t do certain procedures, like colonoscopy, lumbar punctures, bronchoscopy or angioplasty.  How many of these have you done, doctor?  And what happened to the patients?

We physicians like to say we are scientifically trained, and non-physicians don’t have data to show they make a difference.  Where are the numbers?  What should they be?  And what are we doing to achieve those numbers?   Too many ideologues argue using rhetorical questions, which I find annoying.  A statistician’s job is to ask questions.  Ours are good questions, answered with data, uncertainty and appropriate inferences.

We don’t need high speed computers to measure outcomes.  Pen and paper work just fine, with a lot of curiosity, and an open mind.

 

HOW ABOUT MISTER SMITH, OR EVEN SIR?

May 12, 2014

“Dr. Smith, lay to the bridge.”

John, my hall mate back aft on the O3 level, cringed, and then let loose with a few epithets.  He and I had the two aft staterooms separated from the rest of “Officer’s Country” by a door.  It was colder there when it was cold, like off Korea in March, and it was hotter there when it was hot, like in the Philippines in June.  But we were mostly left alone, had an exit door aft, with a good view of the ship’s wake, when we weren’t working.

The numbering system for decks started with the Main Deck, then 2,3,4 going below or down.  Going topside or up, it was O1, O2, O3, to the uppermost deck, our bridge on the O4 level.

John cringed, because “lay to the xxx,” was used only to call enlisted personnel. “Your presence is requested to xxx”  was for officers.  Put succinctly, it was a breach of etiquette. The Navy was polite.  As coarse as the day-to-day language was, contributing to my current curse word vocabulary well into three figures, there was politeness.  I had to salute senior officers once a day on board, but only if I were covered, or wore a hat.  At sea, hats were not required, although most of us wore ball caps.  Navy men never salute uncovered.  Covers were not allowed in sick bay; they were required on the bridge.  In port, in uniform, one was always covered outside.  I learned these rules fast; I had to.

Coming aboard, one saluted twice, once aft, where the colors (flag) flew, and once to the officer of the deck, concomitantly saying, “request permission to come aboard.”  The procedure was reversed when one disembarked.  One needed an ID ready, too.  Ashore, one saluted any senior officer, holding it until the salute was returned. We called senior officers “Sir,” but on board, the executive officer was “XO,” the Captain was “Captain,” or plain “Cap’n”.  He didn’t mind.  When the Captain appeared, the first person spotting him said, “Attention on deck,” and we all jumped up.  The Captain would say “at ease,” and we would sit down.  This was formal stuff.  When the XO appeared in Sick Bay, I stood up.  It showed respect.

In correspondence with junior officers or enlisted men, we wrote, “Your attention is directed to xxx.”  To senior officers, we wrote, “Your attention is invited to xxx.” To this day, I take that and three other things with me from the Navy: short hair, my shirt buttons lined up with my pants zipper, and use of the word “Sir.”

I mention all of this, because the other day at the local pharmacy, where I get my medications, I stood inside the privacy line, painted on the floor.  Privacy is a big deal these days, except everybody knows everything about me, so I don’t really believe in it.  I may not see a prescription, but even with bad ears I hear what people are getting.  In any case, I was chided with a “Get back behind the privacy line.”

Gee, sorry that I am old, new in town, and honestly didn’t see the line, since the letters were faded.  I got half my medicines, since one was still not ready, five days after I dropped off the prescription, another problem with today’s “just in time inventory.”   I decided to return the next day.  As I left, I heard , “Thank you, Michael,” and cringed.

I don’t like strangers, especially the young, calling me by my first name, and I don’t like it when people on the phone with whom I speak ask me how I want to be called.  You call people Mr., Mrs., Dr., or Ms.  It is default.  You don’t ask, you do it, and you ought to know that.  I still call the former head of neurology where I trained “Doctor.”  He is in his 80s, and he has always been “Doctor” to me.  The past Executive Director of the Medical Society always called me “Doctor,” although we spoke on a lot of issues as friends.  It’s a sign of respect.

I don’t push the issue, but maybe it’s time to.  If you are too polite, you will be given an honor (yes, it is) to call someone people by his or her first name.  One should not put people in an uncomfortable position of asking how they want to be called, which happened with me with AARP.  How about “Mr. Smith”?  It is always in style, never wrong.

Thirty years ago, I flew over to San Diego to attend my Chief’s retirement.  I stayed in my stateroom one last time. I could have called both the Captain and the XO by their first names, for I was a civilian.  I could have called my chief by his first name, too.  But I didn’t.  I never had.  These people were “Captain,” “XO”, and “Chief”.  They were, and they always would be.

I discovered in civilian life that “Sir” is a powerful word showing respect for the office or age, but properly pronounced may be used to show distaste for the individual or task.  I learned the last to more than one lawyer’s chagrin, when he thought he was dealing with an arrogant doctor: my use of “Sir” with the appropriate tone was devastating.

“Sir, could you please step behind the privacy line?  Thank you.”

“Thank you, Mr. Smith. Good-by.”

“Mr. Smith, may I outline the benefits of our program?”

Notice the “Sir,” “please”, “Thank you,” “Mr.” and “may I”. These seven words exude politeness.

Many gun owners have told me that gun ownership will create a polite society.  I disagree.  I didn’t think the 19th century was so polite, the 20th or especially this one, while gun ownership has increased rapidly.  People must be scared of something.  Congress won’t even fund the CDC to find out why.  If we had 25,000 people dying from a new virus every year, you bet the CDC would get money.

Ironically, one of the most polite places where I worked was one where rifles were locked up, we enforced the Uniform Code of Military Justice with Captain’s Mast (non-judicial) more than courts martial, and fights were almost always with fists, even in liberty ports.   I treated a lot of STDs; I honestly can’t remember treating even a knife wound.

But please, dear reader, bear with me, for my memory is no longer good.  I might be mistaken.  But not about gun violence.

 

 

 

ITALICS MINE

May 6, 2014

April 15, 1994, was a memorable day:  The executives of tobacco companies stood before a congressional hearing, under oath (Italics mine), and said these words, among others:

“Cigarettes may cause lung cancer, heart disease and other health problems, but the evidence is not conclusive.”

At one point during the hearing, Rep. (now Sen.) Wyden presented data from medical groups and a 1989 Surgeon General’s report on the health consequences of smoking, asking each executive if he believed that cigarettes were addictive. Each answered no.  I saw that on TV. (Italics mine.)

“What the anti-tobacco industry wants is prohibition,” said one. “We hear about the addiction and the threat. If cigarettes are too dangerous to be sold, then ban them. Some smokers will obey the law, but many will not. People will be selling cigarettes out of the trunks of cars, cigarettes made by who knows who, made of who knows what.”

I know what: carcinogenic and addictive substances, same as now.

Despite earlier denials, a Philip Morris study that suggested that animals could become addicted to nicotine was suppressed in 1983 and 1985.

Wow, if cigarettes are banned, only outlaws will have cigarettes, and as bad as firearm lack of regulation in our society is, the magnitude of deaths is at least 20-fold more in the case of cigarettes. (Italics mine.)

The executives stated that tobacco companies could control the amount of nicotine in cigarettes, using these blends for flavor.

Or to addict people.  Turns out smoking is not a character flaw, but is an addiction, like high fructose corn syrup, but the latter is for another time.

Pressed by the subcommittee’s chairman, Mr. Waxman, and Representatives Wyden and Synar, (all Democrats), the companies agreed to supply many private company papers, including all the research done by the Philip Morris researcher whose scientific paper on addiction was blocked from publication by company executives.  (Italics mine.)

When one executive said that all products, from cola to Twinkies, had risks associated with them, Mr. Waxman replied, Yes, but the difference between cigarettes and Twinkies is death.”

“How many smokers die each year from cancer?” Mr. Waxman then asked.

“I do not know how many,” was the reply, adding that estimates of death are “generated by computers and are only statistical.”

If computers are banned, then we won’t die, I guess.  (Italics mine.)

Mr. Waxman asked, “Does smoking cause heart disease?”

“It may,” Mr. Johnston said.

“Does it cause lung cancer?”

“It may.”

“Emphysema?

“It may.”

Could the world be flat?

It may.  (Italics mine).

The term “only statistical” underpins science. We stopped the study on the effectiveness of polio vaccination because of statistics proving the vaccine was effective.  I am polio-free today because of that.  I received the Salk vaccine when it was first available; I was in the first cohort who received the Sabin vaccine.  We have confidence intervals stating with high (not complete) confidence that global climate change is occurring.  I have never seen one CI saying that it isn’t.  (Italics mine.)

We didn’t regulate tobacco enough, allowing “market forces” and “getting government out of business” to handle such issues.  The result has been as many deaths from tobacco-related illnesses every year (Italics mine) as the number of Americans who died in World War II.  Stalin said that “One death is a tragedy, one million a statistic.”  Yes, it is a tragedy when it involves a death at 40, or 53, my father-in-law, or my brother.  This should be a national outrage.  Wow, I can make a case for anti-government being in line of Stalinist thinking.  (Italics mine, but reasoning probably faulty.)

The incredibly rich tobacco company executives lied in front of Congress, suppressing evidence that went back decades.

That, Mr. Boehner, and Mr. Cantor, and Mr. Joe Tea Party, is why we need federal regulation.  Without it, people DIE.  (Italics mine.)

We regulate, because left to their own devices, people make a mess of the world.  We learn that early in school when “today, on your break, you will stay quietly in your seats, because a few people abused the privilege by jumping on their desks and screaming.”  You can use whatever you want for what you couldn’t do, but the first seven words in the subordinate clause stay the same throughout our lives. (Italics mine.)

I unsuccessfully tried to regulate medicine.  With no regulations, doctors did piecework and expected to be paid for it.  I remember a few of these doctors.  Those were the “golden days” of medicine, when “Doctor” was “God,” surgeons threw instruments, people cowered, nurses and medical students abused.  I was verbally abused to the point of tears by many doctors and had a retractor slammed on my thumb once.  “The Giants” made mistakes, because they were human.  Their mistakes were covered up, not investigated so we could learn from them. because to rat on a colleague would result in ostracism and no referrals.

My colleagues operated on carotid arteries, with frighteningly bad results, worse than the natural history of the untreated disease.  I counted these and presented the statistics.  I was screamed at and told I had no business to interfere. I was unpopular; however, I did notice that 12 physicians who became my patients never referred their patients to me.  (Italics mine.)  I thought that interesting. We allowed rods and fusion for low back pain, without adequate evidence that they did any good, which with few clear exceptions, they didn’t.

We failed to do what was proven effective to decrease post-operative infections:  inject a specific antibiotic for clean case infections 30-120 minutes before incision.  Easy, right?  In my hospital, we did it 25% of the time, and physicians refused to change.  We couldn’t even mandate the right antibiotic, promoting resistance to stronger antibiotics that some surgeons insisted upon using.  (Italics mine.)

After many years, we finally mandated that only pulmonary physicians, not general internists, could manage ventilators, because the former had better results.  That was strongly resisted, but it was one powerful group against another, not a dweeby neurologist (Italics and individual mine.) trying to change the profession through data and outcomes.

Politically powerful physicians who brought money into the hospital had special treatment.  Facts, outcomes, right or wrong were too often subsidiary.  It had to do with money. (Italics mine.)

My point is simple:.  Every law, every regulation, came because of a reason.  Maybe the law could have been better written, but the fact that there is a law speaks to a reason.  Some person said, “There ought to be a law against…..”

Don’t like regulations?  Neither do I.  Then self-regulated your group, your peers, your city, your country.  Want government out of your life?  Then figure out how 310 million people can each do what he or she wants without upsetting somebody else.  (Italics mine.) Hear that, Mr. Boehner and Mr. Cantor?

I don’t miss second hand smoke.  Nor does my body.  

(Italics mine.)

 

 

PAGE 107

March 31, 2014

Despite difficulties with the Affordable Health Care Act, I have had no problem with Medicare, “big government” medicine.  I have, however, had problems with one private insurance company.  I will call it “X,” to avoid any semblance of libel, although I am not telling an untruth.  Part D was enacted by the Bush administration, and while a step forward, I expected perfection, since Bush was a Republican.  I did not expect a “doughnut hole,” cost overruns, and failure to negotiate with pharmaceutical companies.

Anyway, I signed up online with X and a local pharmacy for my two prescription medications.  I used my Arizona address, because at the time I lived there. I soon discovered that I got what I paid for.

I take Drug “A,” 2 mg, 2 pills twice a day, 240 mg monthly.  Drug A has 3 sizes:  2, 5, and 10 mg.  Representatives from company X told me that Medicare regulations limited the number of pills per month to 90, in order to prevent falls, a potential side effect.  This restriction was not true, I later learned.  Rather than to ask my physician for an emergency authorization to take my usual dosage, I procured a prescription for 5 mg, 60 a month, although I needed to take my daily dosage in a different fashion.  It wasn’t ideal, but I could live with it.  Notice that I could take 300 mg a month.  That was a tipoff that Medicare restrictions were not the issue, private business restrictions were.

I called a special number to X and had a 3-way conversation with their clinical pharmacist and their sales representative.  I had no problem with Medicare’s restriction; I did have an issue with the monthly allowed dose, which made no sense.  Knowing the answer, I asked my next question:  How many 10 mg pills may I take a month?  They both answered: “120”.

I continued:  “So, I can’t take 120 pills of the 2 mg dosage a month, or a total monthly dosage of 240 mg, right?”  They agreed.

“But,” I continued, “I can take 120 pills of the 10 mg dosage a month, 1200 mg total, 6 2/3 times the allowed 2 mg dosage, right?”  I teach high school math; I knew this stuff when I was about 6.

There was sudden silence on the line, then, “we need to talk to our supervisors.”  In other words, apparently somebody at X realized the restriction of dosage for the smaller amount did not obviate the issue of prescribing a larger number of pills for the larger dosage.

That is Part 1.  On 7 March, I went to the pharmacy to get my prescription, only to be told I had been “disenrolled” from X on 28 February.  No reason was given.  Nobody at X answered the telephone on the weekend, so now I was without Part D coverage.  Suppose I were 75, on chemotherapy, needed a key anti-arrhythmic, didn’t have money, and had moderate dementia?  These things occur, even to elderly Republicans.

Becoming concerned about coverage, I called AARP-recommended United Health Care, spoke to a person, and enrolled, effective 1 April.  I will have no coverage during March.  Fortunately, I have enough medication.  If I didn’t, and the medication were expensive, I would be in trouble.

One may change address for coverage of drugs under Part D, and I planned in March to inform X that starting in April, I would be living in Eugene, not Tucson.  I don’t know how X got my Eugene address, except private information is easy to find nowadays.  Amazon, most of West Africa, and every medical organization worldwide appears to have mine.

On 14 March, I received a letter from X, dated 7 March, saying “Your Prescription drug coverage ends soon” .  In fact, when I got the letter, I was already two weeks without coverage; when the letter was written, I was already a week without coverage. Given the letter was written in the future tense, I wonder how X treats the past.

I quote part of the letter, my comments in bold:

“Thank you for letting us know about your change of permanent address”  (I didn’t.  I would have in March, had I not been disenrolled.)

“You now live outside X Prescription Drug Plan service area. To be a member of our plan, you must live in X’s service area, although you may be out of the service area temporarily for up to 12 months. How did you know the address wasn’t temporary? For that reason, we’ll disenroll you from X’s Prescription Drug Plan on 02/28/14.  “Because” is a better word than “for” in this instance.  The tense was wrong, they waited several days to send the letter, it was dated a week after the fact and took 7 days to travel 2000 miles.  

X did nothing illegal.  On page 107 of my coverage document, the wording was quite clear.  It wasn’t in fine print, but I wonder how many people go through these documents word by word, especially elderly folks, who may not understand a lot of these terms.   The individuals involved at X did not appear to know the English language, judging by the tenses; further, they did not mail the letter in a timely fashion, I had no chance to appeal, and without warning, I lost my coverage.  That was not mentioned on page 107.

While the Affordable Health Care Act has become a whipping boy for all that is wrong with medicine, this is an insurance company issue. The one organization that has worked is Medicare.  I suggested two decades ago that we would do well to expand Medicare to cover everybody:  It would be a one page bill, solving many problems. Costly?  Sure.  What cost can one place on not having insurance and being ill?  A lot of people pay that cost, especially the ill person.  Is that what America is about?

Perhaps X is a good company.  In my experience, however, they drop people suddenly, then later use the future tense.  I teach English online to people in 90 different countries and know the difference between the past perfect and future.  Their letter was signed:  “The X Enrollment Team.”  I am old enough to remember the jokes about “the 20 Mule Team.”  This would be funny, if it weren’t so potentially dangerous to the elderly.

I must be careful; “scorn or ridicule” are part of the definition of libel.

 

KEY WORDS SPANNING THE AGE DIVIDE

March 17, 2014

 

When I was a first year medical student, I worked for a neuroanatomy professor 31 years my senior, who became a good friend.  He was still the professor, however.  When I once became upset, he became stern and calmed me down.  When I called a co-worker  “Little man,” (a college nickname), the professor, with the same last name as I, took me aside, told me my comment was demeaning and never to use it again.  I haven’t.

I offered suggestions in his research but never corrected him otherwise. Dr. Stuart Smith greatly influenced me, never knowing he was a big reason I became a neurologist. In 1981, I sent him a card announcing the opening of my practice.  His widow wrote me he had died two weeks earlier, at 63, from a ruptured aortic aneurysm. I wished I had written sooner. I can still hear his booming laugh.

I am now older than he lived to be and have had different experiences with those in their 20s.  One posted an article on Facebook about a scientist who had found a possible breakthrough that “might” help Alzheimer’s patients.  The individual wrote that the man deserved the Nobel Prize, hoping a grandmother, afflicted with the disease, would be helped.

I posted that the key word was “might,” and there was a long way from the lab to clinical practice.  I was measured in my response, not commenting, as I could have, that my grandmother also had Alzheimer’s, my mother died of a rapidly progressive dementia, and that doctors like the limelight, too, so any possible breakthrough is often taken directly to the press, rather than waiting to see whether it will work.  I didn’t add that I had evaluated thousands of Alzheimer’s patients and had seen many possible “cures” appear and disappear.  In short, I tried to inject a dose of needed reality into hope. Taking away hope is bad; giving false hope is worse.

The young person quickly retorted, “No, MIKE (caps added), the key word is hope.”

I am fairly informal about being called by my first name, but the Internet has allowed the young to call elders by their first name and slam them, because it is easier to write something nasty than to say it directly to somebody 40 years your senior.  On the bus, I am often called “Sir”; that is rare online.  I chose to remain silent, showing both restraint and wisdom.  I found the comment disrespectful and am not particularly eager to communicate again with the individual, whom I suspect would not notice.  I was once that age; the person has not been mine.

I never would have dreamt to correct Dr. Stuart Smith by using his first name and thinking I knew more than he did. He would have slammed me verbally, and he was one of the best English grammarians I ever met. Times have changed.

Many scientists want to report they have discovered a possibility that may lead to a possibility that possibly some day might possibly help somebody.  The use of the same base word here is deliberate, for new, safe, effective drug production is a long process.  There are few “miracle drugs” in medicine.  In my training, I learned an adage: “to write anything positive about treatment of multiple sclerosis is a good way to ruin your career.”  Forty years later, the adage is not far off the mark.  I have no doubt we will eventually prevent, stop, or cure MS, but that day is not yet visible to me.

The young person might feel I was too sensitive to take the comment as an insult. As both as a neurologist and as an older person who has seen and experienced far more, I was insulted.  Hope mattered a lot to the person, which I understand; realistic hope, however, based upon a great deal of experience, matters more to me.  Others in their 20s have said worse to me, but they were from other cultures, not familiar with mine, so I gave them more leeway when they said or did things I found appalling.

I can count on the fingers of both hands the numbers of patients in my practice I called by their first name.  I was formal.  I used “Mr.”, “Mrs.”, “Ms.” or “Dr.”    Thirty-five years after I met him, I still call the retired chairman of neurology where I trained, “Doctor.”  I always will. My parents resented being called by their first name.  I was furious when my dying father had a chest X-Ray performed by a technician, referring to Dad as “buddy.”  My father began his career as a science teacher and became superintendent of schools in three cities.  He wrote two science textbooks and could fix cars.  At 90, he was interested enough to see the Sandhill Crane migration; the following year, he explained to two young women why a lunar eclipse occurred and traveled alone to his 70th college reunion.

I think a key difference today is that the young have equal access to information that I have.  They don’t, however, have the same life experiences as I; many do not have critical thinking skills necessary to carefully analyze “breakthroughs.”  In my youth, every cashier could correctly make change, not now.  We learned grammar and how to hold a pen and write, uncommon today.  We called adults “Mr.” or “Mrs.”, less now.

Perhaps I should have apologized for being too old, sensitive and experienced to write what I considered a careful response.  I certainly know how to apologize, but felt then what I did was appropriate.  If not, I’ve had a lot of practice apologizing.  That comes from age, too.

Also from my parents, my wife, and Dr. Stuart Smith.

 

RESERVATION DOCTOR ON THE LITTLE BIGHORN

March 12, 2014

Crow Fair, 1973.  My wife and I are medical students working on the Crow Indian Reservation in southeastern Montana.  We live in a small house on the reservation, near the small hospital, on the banks of the Little Bighorn River, yes, THAT Little Bighorn River, 5 miles from where Custer met his end in 1876.

This was our second summer there, so people knew us in Crow Agency.  We saw patients from Lame Deer, on the Northern Cheyenne Reservation; Lodge Grass, Wyola and Pryor. We worked at the hospital, delivering babies, helping with surgery, suturing wounds, treating emergencies, and learning to do what few medical students learn:  how to give shots.

One day, I heard a man had collapsed in the dry riverbed of the Little Big Horn, downstream from our small, orange house.  I was told to go to see what happened.  I can still remember walking down the mud bank, alone, to the body of an elderly Crow man lying supine, seeing sand on his corneas.  It was the first time I had pronounced a man dead.  There would be thousands more in my career, but they would all be in technology-laden hospitals, with people around me, not alone with a man, probably  born about 20 years after Custer’s demise.

I still remember the names of the two women on whom I first scrubbed in surgery, the  the man upon whom I passed my first nasogastric tube.  I remember the first time I was called “Doc,” by a man, whose foley catheter I changed, not really having any idea what I was doing by injecting air into the balloon.  Nobody was present; I was expected to do it. I did fine, got thanked, took a deep breath, and returned to the nurse’s station.

Our equipment was rudimentary: We had an X-Ray machine and small lab.  This was before CT.  Major emergencies were sent to Billings, 70 miles away, now on Interstate 90, but earlier on US 212, now called the Hardin Road, or old US 87 (it  was US 212 in 1970, when I first drove it), a two lane paved road rutted from use.  I hit a deer on it one night, doing about 65, smashing the windshield.  We were lucky it didn’t come into the car.  Sadly, it was not dead, and we had to kill it.  The next day, the Crows told me to drive around with the windshield smashed, like all the other cars there.  We got it repaired, instead.

Crow Fair was an annual celebration in August, a major gathering of tribes from all over the western United States.  There was a lot of work that week in the hospital.  We were among the few whites there, but we were members of the community, and while many Crows remained aloof, I never remember feeling unwelcome.  The only thing we weren’t allowed to do was learn the language.  Many said they would teach us, but they never did, and when we used words that we knew both the meaning and the pronunciation,  they acted like they didn’t understand.  Later, that happened to me in France, and my French was a lot better than my Crow.  The white man had taken nearly everything they had; they weren’t going to give him their language, too.  We named one of our first cats “Saba,” which was Crow for “What?” if the word is dragged out.  The other cat was “Busby,” a town on the Northern Cheyenne Reservation.

During the Fair, I was in the emergency room when a man walked in, with a 15 cm gash in his forehead, after being gored by a bull.  “Hurry up, doc,” he said, “I’ve still got time for the second round.”  I can’t say I did the best suturing job in the world, but after two summers there, I was good at it.  He returned to the rodeo.  These people were tough.  Yet, times were rough.  In 1971, there was a diphtheria epidemic on the reservation.  Yes, diphtheria.

I don’t remember who got the idea to dress me up and have me ride in Crow Fair.  Those two summers were the only time in my life I ever rode a horse.  We first rode near Billings, at a ranch where part of “Little Big Man” was later filmed.  A real doctor there and his wife had horses, so we rode at Crow Agency as well.  My wife now has 5  and rides; then, we were newlyweds, and I learned to ride, although I would not continue.

The morning of the parade, I was given an honor that I have never forgotten:  I was the only white man riding.  The only white man.  I rode a horse named “Mare,” who was one.  She was perfect for me; nothing fazed her.  I wore a white coat with “Reservation Doctor” written on the back, along with a tepee with a few symbols, drawn by a member of the tribe.  My black bag was on the saddle’s horn; for 15 minutes, I was part of the parade that rode around the rodeo grounds.  Many laughed, but with me, not at me.  I was totally welcome.

I still have the white coat and the black bag.  Many times, cleaning out the garage, I wondered whether it was time to throw the white coat away.  I haven’t worn it in 41 years, but after the picture posted here, I put it on again, just to do it.  I will never part with it.  The jacket has no intrinsic value; after I die, will it be thrown away.  Only my wife knows the story behind it, “Mare,” and saw me ride with the the white coat.  Today, we would be probably post a video on YouTube or Facebook.  Then…and now, what we have are memories.  The memories may be wrong.  I wouldn’t trade those imperfect memories for a clear video on YouTube, a powerful statement that those too young to remember a time without YouTube might consider.

The white coat signified the summer I was a “reservation doctor.”  I rode in the Crow Fair parade, near the Little Bighorn, the only white man riding among Indians, and survived, honored, a far better outcome than Custer and his men, 97 years and 2 months earlier.  

It has remained one of the most special moments in my life.

Reservation doctor.  I felt in the pocket, and I found an old cup of "silly putty."That dates the jacket as clear as Iridium dates a meteor strike.

Reservation doctor. I felt in the pocket, and I found an old cup of “silly putty.”That dates the jacket as clear as Iridium dates a meteor strike.

QUITTING

February 5, 2014

February 1956:  Speculator Ski Area, Adirondack Mountains, New York State.

I was a 7 year-old boy who herringboned up to the rope tow, grabbed the rope, and didn’t let go, until my skis hit the edge of a rut, 50 yards later, and I fell.  Unlike the 100 prior times, however, I got back up, grabbed the rope, immediately falling  head first.  A third time, I went another 100 yards, the fourth, I fell again, but on the fifth. I finally made it to the top, letting go, jubilant.  For the first time, I had made it to the top of the hill. I later became an expert technical skier, but I never forgot that 7 year-old boy.

July 1960:  Massawepie Boy Scout Camp, also in the Adirondacks, on the swim dock, final test for my Lifesaving Merit Badge.  I failed to rescue the instructor, double my weight, on my first attempt.  The second time, I grabbed the skin of his armpit to hang on.  He yelled, “oh, you learned that trick!” throwing me off.  I should have kept trying, but I quit. I earned the merit badge back home.  I always regretted quitting that day.

I saw a “fluff” post on Facebook: “You can’t fail if you don’t give up.”  Not true. Moreover,   quitting is not invariably wrong. Sometimes, one is better off giving up and failing.  Sometimes, one is not better off by succeeding.  Our society believes that hard work is always rewarded and that continuous trying a virtue and quitting a vice.  Sometimes it is true, other times, it is not:

1. Margaret Mitchell tried 38 times to get Gone with the Wind published; J.D. Salinger and Agatha Christie’s works were also rejected before finally accepted.

2. The inventor of the intermittent windshield wiper switch, Robert Kearns, persevered and won $30 million for patent infringement.  His wife divorced him and he spent $10 million in the 14 year process.  He didn’t quit and was vindicated.  Having spent more time with lawyers than I would like, I’m not sure a 14 year battle with lawyers and divorce was worth the $2 million a year he made was worth it, but others may disagree.   I cannot put a dollar cost on a divorce and years spent in acrimonious debate.

For every successful athlete, singer, and entertainer there are hundreds who worked as much, maybe more, and never made it.  One may say, “Yes, but the next time, they might have succeeded.”  Perhaps.  To me, there are few things sadder than those who persevered when they should have quit:  Michael Jordan and Joe Paterno come to mind.  Age is real, and the infirmities that come with it.

Is quitting bad?  Is it worth throwing good money after bad, good time after bad?  At what point ought one give up?

I failed as a statistical consultant, because I knew nothing about marketing.  I then became interested in patient safety and medical error reporting, but after 5 years of trying to develop a confidential reporting system, writing legislation introduced in the Arizona House for two years, I quit. In retrospect, I had no chance, medicine wasn’t ready to learn from errors; perhaps we will some day.

What happened as a result of my failing?  When my parents’ health declined, I was there for them.  When I decided to see places in the world that meant a lot to me, like the Sandhill Crane migration, Isle Royale, the Arrigetch Peaks, total solar eclipses, and the National Parks, I did.  I worked on my writing, won two awards, and asked to write for the medical society, which I did for 9 years.  Those writings are here on the blog, my later articles better than my earlier ones. I became a better writer because failure gave me time to write, time to discover writing was my way to both relax and communicate.

I failed to write a book in 1983, 720 pages, typewritten, about a my experiences serving aboard a Naval ship.  The Naval Institute Press was tentatively interested, asking me to revise it.  Sadly, after my revision, they turned me down; concurrently, a young man named Tom Clancy was submitting material to them.  I quit writing and concentrated on my medical practice, where I succeeded so long as I subjected myself to unreasonable hours, malpractice suits, hurry, arguments about compensation, and constant interruptions.  At 43, I decided to quit, one of the best decisions I ever made.

I worked for the Forest Service in Minnesota for six months, more content than I ever dreamed possible, returning to become medical director of a hospital, a new world, until I quit again, five years later, to become a graduate student in statistics.  When I left medicine, I lost money, power, and influence.  I obtained my Master’s, although had I known I would fail as a statistician, perhaps I might have quit.  From failure, I entered a new world, not only writing, but volunteering, becoming a substitute math teacher, teaching English on line to people in 90 countries, and learning German.

Stopping aggressive treatment of dying patients was my greatest contribution to medicine.  I knew how and when to end life support for patients with irreversible brain injury, long before hospice and The Hemlock Society.  Some doctors save lives, but others know when it is time for a patient to die. Germans call it “ein schöner Tod;” we call it a good death.  I used the word “die,” not “pass on” or “expire,” because DIE is the strongest verb, the only one that belongs with “death.”  I knew when it was time to let go, but I also respected the wishes of those who opted to continue.  Recovery from coma depends upon age, length of time, and cause. There are specific indicators that highly predict irreversible brain injury.

It is not euthanasia to quit treating; indeed, it is dying naturally, rather than with feeding tubes inserted into the abdomen, treating pneumonia, urinary catheters, bed sores, with no possible chance of returning to a normal life.  Many spouses didn’t know they had a choice and were relieved when I gave them one.  How did I know?  I had studied the neurological literature extensively about coma when I trained.  I knew the probabilities, I talked to patients and their families, heard often “he never wanted to be like this,” and discontinued life support, without discontinuing dignity or caring.  There was a sense in medicine that once a tube was placed, it had to stay.  I had no trouble removing tubes when I was certain of the prognosis and the family agreed.  The act was neither easy for the families, nor for me, but I knew how important this final decision was for families.  When my parents reached this stage, when “the door out” opened, I allowed them to go through; I kept my promise to them.  I knew when to quit.

Hanging on to a rope tow or a drowning person is worth persevering; knowing when and when not to persevere is a definition of wisdom.  Perhaps that should have been posted on Facebook.